Your Weekly Mantra: I Find Refuge In My Light And In My Shadow www.tatianascavnicky.com

She's a swan and a pistol
She's whiskey in a teacup
She's a diamond that wants to stay coal
~Tom Waits


Now and then the light wakes us up. Everything is right and good in the world and we simply wake up feeling like we've won a prize. We transport to a dimension where life's troubles fade away literally into light, not a single hint of stress in sight. Those bright mornings are lucky. Hopefully we still yearn for them. They magically seem to attract more goodness. We take some of that light when we see it in another, maybe even steal it for ourselves. 

We do not yearn for troubled times. We don't ask for feelings of grief and vulnerability. Usually we aren't looking to be hurt to learn things about ourselves, but the shadow will take us straight down to the core.

You could get lost in another person's story, and fall in love their shadow. Intrigued by their light and dark, soulful eyes pull you in. I don't know about you but I would like to be led and guided by someone who has walked in the dark a lot. Someone who has survived the good, bad and ugly. Someone who has been to hell and back... and survived. That's how you become a bad ass. I trust wild, bright, knowing and serene eyes. I trust the experience of those who have gone before me, those who can light their own lamps. I didn't trust it when I was younger, but my innocent eyes couldn't yet see in the dark. 


I see a story in my eyes now. I give refuge to that girl who felt she had to claw and fight for everything she had, like many. I wrap my arms around the part of me that feels righteous anger and trembles with sheer powerlessness. She deserves sanctuary too and a warm soft bed to lay her head. Even jealousy and envy is a sign of a fierce personal desire and want. Hopefully light will lead to that, but how would you know if your shadow hadn't said so?



May your lamp burn bright in the light...and in the dark.
XoTatiana

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